Towards the end of 2009...

Towards the end of 2009, there are many feelings inside of me. There are feeling of joy...sad...fear...loneliness..insecure..unsure. All these mixed emotions and feelings are making me feeling weird. Year 2009 is really not a good year for me. I had encountered so many problems and problems just can't get enough of me. They kept coming to me again and again. I had struggled and asking for strength for me to continue fighting. Now that these problems seem to go away slowly.. I am somehow feeling lil relieved. In few days later, I will starting my new job in a new place. Year od 2010 is a really a new year for me. A new year that I am hoping for new hope, love, commitment and life. I am hoping that I can leave all those bad and sad things behind and move forward. I believe that the coming year will be a greater one.

However, deep inside me, I have this feeling of fear.. afraid and insecure about things that are coming to me. What if the new job doesn't suits me? What if I can't get a long with my new colleagues? What if I fail to impress my new boss? What if they think that I am not capable to do my new job? What if I cannot make through this time? I am starting a new base in a new place. Everything will be new and strange to me. Probably that is why I am fear... scare.. afraid and feeling insecure.

I really want to escape myself from all these. I want an easy way out for all these. But how long can I escape? How many easy way out is there for me? No matter what, I need to go through all these nonsense. I have been telling myself that this is just another new beginning for me. God will give me the strength, courage and faith to deal with all these...to face my future with hope and own my brighter future. As long as I take out my sincerity, honesty, effort, understanding, humble and sharing attitude, I can make all things right. *crossing my finger*

Can I really survive this time? :)

My 6th speech - Vocal Variety

Finally, I had completed my sixth speech in Toastmasters. The title of my speech is "That is how we speak". Basically my speech is telling us how important is vocal variety in communication, and how do we achieve that. Well, I think it was a so-so speech. I wasn't really prepared for it. But I managed to pull it over and got it done. My evaluator said I had achieved the objectives of the speech project. People said it was good. But I think it was not that overwhelming. I should have present my speech in a different concept. A concept that are more personal to me and at least I should make people laugh. But I did not do so. But I am glad that it was all over now.

One thing great about tonight is this is the first time our HICT Toastmasters Club organized a meeting during a dinner. Our meeting was held in Loke Fook Moon restaurant in Meru Klang. With the delicious food and great companies, indeed this is one of the good night to remember! I really appreciate the exco committee for their hard work to make tonight a success one. Good job guys! Bravo!

Month of December!

Ho ho ho... after so long... finally i have the time to update my blog. Month of December is an exciting month for me! So many things happened this month... I quit my job... ended that I have to use this tactics of disappearing from work. Why? Cause my company's HR said I need to serve three months. The funny thing is I do not even know that! I really do not know what is wrong with this Hr.. anyway, to save me from all those unnecessary problem, I think the best resort is to leave the company after serving one month notice. Actually I am quite worry if they will issue me a legal letter, but after few discussion with experienced people, I am on the winning side! Phewww.... lucky me.

Then there is this Taiwan's trip that I had. This trip took about 11 days and I went with Diana and Wee Han. Well, this is the first time we went holiday together. Of course there will be things that cannot meet each others needs and requirements. But we managed to pull it through. I really had so much fun during this trip. But it also created a big hole in my pocket! Hmmm... We went to so many places... and ate so many kinds of foods. The best thing is the HOTSPRING! I really enjoyed myself there. I bet all of us had fun inside the tub. Posing and videoing all kinds of movement and postures. Hahahaha... u know i am talking about u! We took lot lot of pictures.. cause u know.. Wee Han is there.. what can u expect more right? :)
I got myself a lot of bags during this trip.. really a lot. Things are quite cheap there.. well, it depends on which places. Places like Shihlin night market and Danshui are quite nice places to do shopping. I also got lot of Christmas gifts for my family and friends. I also got a Christmas gift from someone special! Hehehe... The 11 days really passed so fast. But tell u one thing... NEVER TAKE AIR ASIA if your flight is more than 3 hours! The five hours journey to and from Taiwan was horrible and freaked me out. No more Air Asia for me if I were to go Taiwan again. One time is enough.. really enough.

AS for now, I am enjoying myself at home doing all the things that I have to finish before the year end. I am taking time to do things and to spend time with my mum at home. I realized that if we were to take time to see things around us... there are really many things we can actually see. If we are able to take our life in a slower pace, we can actually see more things! :D